more brain mush

im gonna make a separate blog for holiday shit, its just this is the one moment in the past 2 weeks ive had time to process shit in my head

exams are over, thank fuck, i didnt really bomb any but i didnt pass as well as i probably should have. oh well. i barely got to see anyone before i left but i remembered texting is a thing so yay.

uhhh a few weeks ago... not remembering how long, computer boy ended up hella venting to me during class n told me some very heavy shit and. honestly? im kinda losing my mind that he trusts me this much n felt like it was ok to tell me so much abt himself. still losing my mind tbh. having someone you like kinda look up to doing that kinda thing, i might just be sick in the head and overreacting tho.

boyfriend got me too many things for christmas and judging by the questions and conversations we had weeks before i think one of them might be Gordie or Guzma pokemon related. i love it when guys lean into my delusions and love of big men. i have no idea what else he got me, but i suck at surprises he asked me for HD joker and evil dead rise DVDs and a steam gift card so i stressed about getting those literally yesterday, the day before Christmas. i hope we meet up for the holidays, i really need someone to be around this time of year and i think if i have to be around my dad any longer i will go crazy insane kill someone

uhhhhh didnt get to celebrate the solstice cus this country has like straight up banned lighting fires so there goes my fucking beliefs holidays, we were planning on bringing an old sofa to a beach and lighting it but we didn't have the time sadly. hopefully next year. but happy new year lol