like damn. im already thinking of buying a house and getting a job and living with someone and like. actually doing stuff. this sucks ASS. schools not helping either its just making me feel like its a 80 foot wall i have to scale just so i can actually do stuff. im either sleeping or doing homework while these twats constantly scream at me about how i HAVE to think of collage and work and also i should spend 24 hours a day studying for an exam i have in 2 years. and if i cant do that i should just drop out. like holy fuck what

its weird being treated like my age for once too, instead my height.. if that makes sense. i look very feminine but i dont wear any makeup, im about 5 foot 4, i dont act very mature, just quiet, so im used to people being surprised when i tell them im 17, fuck even im surprised im 17... like wdym im still 13...

holy shit n my boyfriend is 18 next month (i thiiiink??? im such a bad partner i forgot his birthday...), he absolutely looks his age which is probably jarring for people to see us as a couple, but i think he makes me seem moreless like my age

im also getting closer to being in a place where i can be a little more open about things like being trans and gay, alot of my friends take it very well, my boyfriend has completely embraced me being trans now which makes me insanely happy. like holy fuck wdym i dont have to follow the rules my dad has around me cutting my hair or dressing "like a fella" in like less than a year???....

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IM GOING TO BE AN ADULT IN LESS THAN A YEAR.