blogging time. i hope this ass site doesnt log me out as soon as i go to post like last time.

i have 4 weeks left of being a student! and ive given up on going to college. i dont think im gonna make the qualifications + i cant change my level in computer science to higher in the department of educations shit so im stuck doing ordinary for my exam. so theres no way im gonna get into my course. BUT! leaving school means i can be FUNCTIONAL and NORMAL. and im getting an id and all that shit soon so i can be more independent! my bf, myself and a few of his friends are looking to buy a shit house in the city in my county and share it and i plan on starting to medically transition after school, so atleast i have alot to look forward to and keep me going. Ive an irish aural exam on thursday so wish me luck ig!

i saw the minecraft movie with polish girl and computer boyfriend last weekend, i went in with absolutely no idea what it was about only that jack black was in it and a villager gets run over. and it was pretty good. for a kids movie anyway. felt very 'people are gonna post this everywhere and make us so much money'-y with how something memeable happened every 2 seconds but meh whatever. everytime something was said people clapped and cheered so that was fun. i now want an 80s mullet cus of gargar. i am placin blocks and shit cus im in fuckin minecraft.

buhhnmn whatelse happened to me. uh. i started opening pokemon cards. i love gambling. and ive actually gotten pretty lucky. a load of full arts, i got one card from a 6 euro pack thats worth like 17 quid. im not up but im happy. i dont open them to sell i open them to get autistic about images of things i like. i got gifted 2 gold cards from my bf too.

i finished psychopomp gold recently. very good game. i look forward to psychopomp 2. im gonna buy and play fallout new vegas cus i am deeply inlove with every blond man i see and i must see arcade gannon with my own two eyes.

oh i do have alot of art this time. since i couldnt post my last ones cus i got logged out mid blogging.

https://file.garden/ZeOhOPaj1Fo9KhZz/courney.png

ill go oldest to newest. heres the finished version of the courtney doodle that was cropped out in the last blog. where are you looking at girl

https://file.garden/ZeOhOPaj1Fo9KhZz/gayass%20teehee%20colress.png

a genuine request my bf wanted me to draw. gay ass teehee colress. i think he likes him.,.

https://file.garden/ZeOhOPaj1Fo9KhZz/son%20job.png

drew my guy in the Aether Foundation uniform. so cutes. he wants to kill himself.

https://file.garden/ZeOhOPaj1Fo9KhZz/his%20cringe.png

latest piece, felt so joyful being out of school that i needed to draw my guy being stupid. love them.

ok thats it byebye

hello myspace.f46n.org . bloging time cus i cant stop procrastinating

i have been living in my dinky ass apartment for like. nearly 2 years and THIS WEEK we finally got flooring put in. no more is the rubbery soundproofing that stained my feet and ate several small black objects that i dropped on it. now my house has the exact same gray wood lino all over it. it actually feels like a house now kinda AND flooring means we can finally decide on paint and furniture. i have no idea what color i want my room to be but ik i dont want anything basic. maybe ill get 2 colors hm

i have pre-exams next week... only a month after christmas exams. and im FUCKED. i understood NOTHING i was told and i will now fail evertthing... sad!! i was gonna end up working in centra anyway. the only thing thats going well rn is my engi and my computer science projects. ive given up on most of engi and im settling for a o4 or better but now. my cars designs have hearts on em. so thats awesome. im also pretty sure ive got insomnia now for some fucked stress reason cus ive been finding it hard to sleep at all other than when im in class. where i will be perpetually nodding off but never sleeping. god i cant wait for school to be over.

some people hate being autistic, but i dont. my pkmn ORAS obsession got worse over the week and i had a day where if i didnt consume all the fan made media of one character i liked i would have killed a man. which lead me to read a 10 chapter long fan fic from 2015 that has been and will forever live rent free in my mind. autism is great i still wish it was a superpower like the weird ladies in the doctors office like telling me

comp sci boy(friend) update! i still love him very much, hes gonna take me out after pre exams for dinner (valentines day) and it will be the first time i wear a skirt.. hopefully. cus i wanna be cute and girly for once and it might be fun. Ive been playing terraria with him for a few weeks and we are pre plantera rn and very good at the game. im playing as sorcerer and hes doing melee, currently i do way more damage than him but i die very fast lol. im gonna treat him to lunch 2morro hopefully.

hmmmm do i have any art i wanna share huh... well im in the process of a dumb little drawing of my pokemon guy Del as a roadman as per request of polish girl from a few blogs ago. but i havent done anything im particularly proud of in a while. energy to draw has been hard to come across in a hot second...

ok heres a doodle from a week ago of the pookies + the cropped out head of courtney ORAS cus i hated that blank space next to her. this was a doodle to visualize stuff to a few people i was explaining lore to but im kinda proud of it :D

https://file.garden/ZeOhOPaj1Fo9KhZz/stinkers.png

ok thats all my news i think ok bye

i havent blogged in so long so im back again with any news i can think of.

hm so. myspaces have kinda been dead. thats bumming me out alot but even im too busy to log on frequently anymore. schools busy as hell, i gotta think about after school for real this time. i got so much on my plate that my new favourite activity is washing dishes cus it means i can watch video essays for a while. yippee.

oh yeah, whatever, intresting stuff now, comp sci boy(friend) update; i have never been so in love with someone in my whole life.
ive never felt so respected and cared for in forever. imagine the one person you look up to, that you understand and respect and then finding out they adore you more than anyone ever has. to think that this mother fucker had been right under my nose the entire time. during that whole previous shit show of a relationship i had (and yes, my previous relationship was AWFUL i just didnt have the balls to talk about it. just think of the worst and that probably happened to me. seriously.) and during everything else. his parents love me, my dad likes him, his friends want to protect me, he will do anything to protect me, hes so patient and wants to teach me thing and. ugh my fucking god i want to go apeshit and run around my room like a rabid animal i adore this fucking guy so much. i blogged so much before about being scared of him, of him sharing personal stuff with me, of being one of my closest friends since all my friends left me and now he is the absolute light of my life. i have never been so happy. i know all my blogs have been bitchy or sad but. im too fucking happy recently to think of any other bad thing. i kinda just wanna yap about this guy all day.

so thats basically all my news. ik its nothing but leaving cert is ruining the lives of many right now. so. dont expect much until next summer lolol. or maybe in the winter ill have news. well, whenever stuff happens i should blog cus i wanna keep this page alive a little.

hello blog, uh.

ok alot of news. kinda. i dropped biology as a subject last week, and im doing ok enough now, not as stressed, my workload isnt that hard now and i never really had to be cus i dont plan on doing college. so yay. um, im working on a neocities now and i learned alot of HTML in class and im trying to do it from scratch. its very hard!!! it makes me cry!!! im fine!!! i love coding!!!! but im having fun ig yay wahoo!! im doing my engineering practical exam too!! i have to make a car. easy!! im trying to come up w/ cool ideas so that my one gets noticed by the examiner but im kinda stuck, if anyone has any wack ass practical ideas id like to hear them. cus all ive got is putting a bullbar on it lolol.

OK. BIG STUFF NOW. UH. me and computer boy are dating now??? as of today??? and i made all the moves and stuff by myself and it was cute and shit. hell yeah!! id yap abt how cute it was if i could but idk if i can at all. im pretty proud of myself tho. esp for pulling this cute, jacked, straight A student dude whos been my bestie for so fucking long and that ive looked up to for so long. like fuck. damn. how did that happen. this dude is texting me being all cute from the fucking gym rn like WHAT. RAHHHHHHHHHH!! im actually interrupting his set rn cus i keep telling him hes cuter. so. hehe.

no art this blog. i think. i havent been doing much digital art recently. but if i remember ill post it below. if not uh. bye bye

hiiiiiiii hiii im so fatigued from everything the only thing keeping me running is a monster i had 2 hours ago and the fear of sleeping too early hiiiii

school started again. SAD!! everything seems fine except the fact im SO FUCKING TIRED. like my body cant take it. its so fucked. im so stressed UGGHHHHG its not that bad tho, i like seeing my friends everyday but istg im gonna collapse at some point i cant take breaks this year i think ill die.

umnn what else umnn im listening to so much The Garden and alot of like. tyler the creator for some reason i dont know if i said that in a blog yet. nice music, i like it even if i hopped on very very very very late. also this sites down alot. why? every time i try look at it its down which sucks ig but i cant complain. oh i have muscles now, they hurt BAD but i can see them without flexing now so YAY. oh im learning HTML in class now so i might do my neoshitties up soon, i dont expect myself to be good at it tho.

oh i have more art to post, i drew on a friend of mines stream the other night and im working on a ref sheet for one of my little guys name of Del. have a look theres some new art and old art i wanna post

older piece i did weeks ago that inspired the next screenshot here

my funny guy as a Litten cus he looks like one, funny.

and my funny guy in the flesh.kinda. Del. i lobe him hes so sillyyyyyyyy ok thanks bye

hiii hii i accidentally hit the back button on my drawing tablet and it reloaded this page so i have to rewrite this im gonna kill someone

school induction day last friday, boring as FUCK. sat there for 3 - 4 ish hours doing NOTHING. it wasnt all bad tho, i spoke to computer boy and bus stop boy again so hooray! and i spoke to a new girl, shes quiet and i had to carry the convo alot but shes nice, plus computer boy wanted me to talk to her last year so i did finally :] sadly the girl from my last blog was in poland on that day so she wasnt in, but its ok cus i went to her house today to hang around. yay! that day was still a pain tho. my ex came up to me and asked for a hug so ughhh.. i really hope he kinda leaves me alone for a while cus ive my sights set on a few people already and i dont want his ass in the way.

something autistic happened to me again and now team magma from pkmn ORAS is now on my brain 24 7 so no future smt IV blogs, however i will share a little autism in the form of a low effort Tabitha doodle i did a moment ago.

awesiome sauce.

ohgh yeah im gonna try make a blog for my top 10 favorite red vox songs 2morro if i have time. and i will do it this time. i need to,. oughhn what else. i got a neat shirt a few days ago, if i find an image ill slap it below if i dont then im done bloghging

https://img.weirdfish.co.uk/cdn-cgi/image/w=220,q=80,f=auto/original/103358.jpg

best image i got, but mines a kinda light bluey-green sorta. more green than blue, yaknow. i like it.

i have been neglecting my smt hyperfixation and playing slime rancher 2 recently which has lead to me being worse abt smt to the point where im actually shaking like a rabid animal whenever im reminded of those games in even the smallest way so expect more autistic blogs from me. aswell as red vox blogs cus my autism can multitask

i also got my hair cut recently, which mightnt sound blog worthy but all my life ive had hair that reached my ass, probably over 3 feet of ugly ass, half bleached, flat as hell hair, but now ive got a puffy wolfcut and i feel like i pass a little more now since the hormone gods have blessed me with sideburns and a tache without me needing to go on T so thats baller. i kinda look older now too which is nice, prolly cus my hair makes my face look less round and more pointy. its also prolly cus im coming into my 'prime twink years' or some shit. speaking of that aswell my dad has banned me from using weights and the bench in our home and im too pussy to go to the gym on my own so no crazy looking arms for me ig..

im also gonna get an id soon which means i can do more shit. which makes my dad think ill be more social if i can buy drinks but all im gonna use it for id say is buying him fags since ive discovered i fucking hate alcohol. tho i would probably enjoy it with other people.

im also not sure if i should be saying this since comp sci boy knows abt this profile and im scared he checks it, but i havent been talking to him so maybe he forgot all abt stalking me lolol.. but ive been talking to a new girl and shes very nice, which is good cus shes been the only person ive been talking to allll summer, and i feel nice talking to her too cus she doesnt have many friends either so spending time with her feels like im doing something in return for once.. makes me feel less selfish..

i think thats kinda funny. i found the site through a 'random button' website on a markiplier video during covid. i remember looking at the website every day on my small ass phone. i made an acc some time around when i was turning 14, i used my phone to code and my css was really dookie untill i got a laptop to code on and since then ive been doing little bits of css. i remember all the old profiles of people on there. all the roleplayers, all the pages that blew my mind when i figured out how css was done. fuck, i still dont fully get css to this day.

i made the css server along side a few old members of ms93 who arnt as active in the myspace clone space anymore as they where then. when i was 14. that was 4 whole years ago. and alot of those people that i met on ms93 discord servers have become those closest friends ive ever had and the people ive loved and kept me going for years.

to think some of you knew me when i was that young is kinda scary but also funny. i also feel sorry for alot of you if you knew me around then. it just feels so weird that i first joined these spaces when i was in first year of secondary school and now after this year i will be out of school. like im an adult now, legally, not really emotionally, and the community changed alot since then ofc. im just surprised ive been coming back for 4 years now. this is probably the most ive ever payed attention to something i like or a community im part of in my whole life.

im just surprised ive been shoebox for such a large portion of my life and kept up with that for so long. i hope these sites are still here when im 20 and older.

green css tyme

ill add more l8tr

i need to blog

i turn old in less than a month and i think i will spend my 18th alone drinking in my room

i didnt really get diagnosed as autistic, i got "identified" as autistic after i did the assessment shit. it honestly feels like a loophole r some shit but idc i knew anyway.

uh. my bf broke up with me and im kinda at the over him stage rn. he was a bit strange anyway but we were together for a year anyway. i just wonder if he wants all his shit back lmao

im learning swedish atm too and i like it. i think i wanted to learn it cus im autistic and i cant have normal interests in anything apparently so now im obsessed with vinesauce and vargskelethor. i also got really into red vox. my dad hates it cus he thinks theyre copying people but i like it.

i think thats it. ill probably blog again when i turn old

it happened

im bored as shit and im waiting for a dude to show up to fix our water cus theres no cold water comming into our apartment so im girlblogging

i recently got rimworld, good gaem, vinny vinesauce got me into it, i bought 2 of the dlcs which was nice and i cant tell whats base game and whats mods anymore

i also recently finished dramatical murder, i did not read any of the content warnings before i played it and it has done damage to my brain i just wanted to see boys kiss. i liked it tho, the music is good

i also almost broke up with my bf in February, wasnt fun, but i think we are better now bc i had computer boy to help me

ive started transitioning more recently too, came out properly to 2 of my closest (and only) irl friends and they do go between calling me a dude and a girl its nice considering they dont understand that well

i will also be planning new css today wish me an attention span of more than 20 minutes

ok goobbye

im gonna make a separate blog for holiday shit, its just this is the one moment in the past 2 weeks ive had time to process shit in my head

exams are over, thank fuck, i didnt really bomb any but i didnt pass as well as i probably should have. oh well. i barely got to see anyone before i left but i remembered texting is a thing so yay.

uhhh a few weeks ago... not remembering how long, computer boy ended up hella venting to me during class n told me some very heavy shit and. honestly? im kinda losing my mind that he trusts me this much n felt like it was ok to tell me so much abt himself. still losing my mind tbh. having someone you like kinda look up to doing that kinda thing, i might just be sick in the head and overreacting tho.

boyfriend got me too many things for christmas and judging by the questions and conversations we had weeks before i think one of them might be Gordie or Guzma pokemon related. i love it when guys lean into my delusions and love of big men. i have no idea what else he got me, but i suck at surprises he asked me for HD joker and evil dead rise DVDs and a steam gift card so i stressed about getting those literally yesterday, the day before Christmas. i hope we meet up for the holidays, i really need someone to be around this time of year and i think if i have to be around my dad any longer i will go crazy insane kill someone

uhhhhh didnt get to celebrate the solstice cus this country has like straight up banned lighting fires so there goes my fucking beliefs holidays, we were planning on bringing an old sofa to a beach and lighting it but we didn't have the time sadly. hopefully next year. but happy new year lol

HI END OF HISTORY HAVE TO LOOK LIKE IM TYPING

my boyfirnd came over to my place last wednesday and we. had fun, my dad then brought us out for food when we was going home...... and then i gave my bf a cold so both of us wernt in school the next day. oops! i have exams on the fucking 19 and im crying i hate this sm why didnt i study last week aauaughhh... my bf is also still injured sadly, i thought it would only last a short while but its looking like its not :[

uhhhhhh aswell apparently i havent been out for 21+ days YET, my schools councilor just told my social worker for some fucking reason... and she wonders why i tell both of them nothing. still stressed as fuck about it so ill be taking another day off school hehe

uhhhhh what fucking else, uhhhhhhhhh OH i have computers next so yay computer sci boy :] barely talked to him this week i hope hes not mad at me for being out lolol, im so behind in the work from being out and. just not doing homework but im too silly to give a shit

ok byyeee i have 3 minutes left of class byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

more sad ass blogging, sorry <2

i need to look like im typing smthing and i dont wanna do my work so im girlblogging

ive offically been out of school for a collective 21+ days, they contacted my socialworker of all people instead of my dad so woopie

my boyfriend has finally given me a reason for why hes been so distant so were gonna meet up hopefully next week, he injured himself on the weekend and some bellend in his class was making fun of him and trying to get people to stop talking to him... i so bady wanna break this dickheads nose but im thiiiiis close to being kicked out that if i did i would without a doubt not get away with "it was self defence".

ive got christmas exams in like 2 weeks too, im absolutely NOT ready, like im not doing work lol, so uh wish me a 40% at least

uhh i have computer study later on so yay computer sci boy will talk to me, i havent talked to him in a while and recently hes been comming to me with girl problems and i think i have an idea what girl hes on abt and im ngl.. not impressed, but like who am i to judge lol. but like aswell i dont really know who it is so i cant judge at all. uhhhh i was scared he wasnt gonna be in 2day but he was just late so yay :] i get to talk to someone

uhhhhh i have nothing else to day and i have 5 minutes left so maybe ill add more in computers later ok bye

ill try be less depressing today lol

i may have completely given up at school but recently ive gotten into writing kinda, something happened to my head about 3 years ago and i find it hard to picture things in my head now so not being able to day dream or be creative has been an issue for me since, and ive never been interested in reading or writing up untill now. i feel like its the only thing i have left to get the things i wanna spin in my head like a microwave out so i can spin them, im still shit at it ofc but like its nice to do these things again because day dreaming has been a source of comfort for me ever since i was a kid

im also having alot of luck socially now too, i havent had this many people i talk to in so long, yeah i still feel hella alienated and paranoid but ive like 4 people i speak to now and its nice. still that guy in my computer class scares me, i can completely open my self up to him while he does too to me and it scares me so much, hes so cool and nice, i still feel like im tricking myself somehow with how much i kinda... look up to him?? thinking hes trustworthy cus of that, again im incredibly delusional and paranoid so it might just be that. both me and him have so many problems in common, and i do want to talk to him more and more but again, The Devil says hes using me... do you ever feel like you want to look after someone and have someone trust you but it never getting past being platonic? it feels like that, i just want someone to trust me again, its hard since i lost all the people who i thought trusted and loved me. its dumb i know, and this guy knows about this page here and im deathly scared he will read these and stop talking to me.

the other guy at my bus stop, he talks to both computer class boy and another one of my friends, ive started talking to him more, and everything he says might be a sex joke but hes kinda good craic so why should i complain, hes normally around another guy, i dont really know him but hes on my bus too, he also makes sex jokes alot, often at my expense, but ig thats what i get for looking the way i do and being around teenage boys...

my boyfriend currently has a cold but i wanna see if i can come over and watch movies with him or something if his parents let me, i dont think i wanna socialise outside school for now, it feels like too much, all i really need is his attention and the gay people in my phone to keep me from locking myself away from the world completely. recently ive been getting alot of "wow youre 17???"s from people, and i know its cus i look so young, im short and i act like a kid too often, but it kinda upsets me that its that way, people get weird when i say my boyfriend is 18 untill i say im 17, its uncomfortable knowing people think that im a child

i have really nothing else to add, ive been eating alot of leftover pizza lately and its the best thing ive had ever, i kinda wanna bring my boyfriend out to dinner tho, its been ages since i ate out of went on a date with him, so that would be nice

slightly less depressing blog whaaaat?????

anyway i managed to FINALLY convince my yearhead that the school jumpers make me want to tear my skin off and for her to allow me to not wear it today so now i get to rub it in the teacher of my study class that Actually Sir... i am allowed break the rules, i have permission so SUCK my balls. accept the last part, wish i could leave that in cus hes a total bellend n i hate him but eh, getting to wear my jacket in a freezing cold, uninsulated classroom is good enough

i might end up going to my doctor again and asking to get refered for a ADD assessment along side the ASD one im on already, maybe 14 year old me was on to something after all, its 100% ASD yeah but like id like to get the right diagnosis...es the first time rather than the second or... tenth...

OH YEAH the guy i mentioned b4 in my last sad ass blog post, i recommended WAR by EVABOY to him n he really liked it, sm that he said it was in his top 10 songs recommended to him, which im very happy abt, i dunno if i mentioned it, i still get the feeling like im getting hit by a truck when this guy says im his friend or he says hi to me in the hall. delusion and The Devil have been telling me i cant trust him cus he still talks to some scumbags who were part of the group of people who sexualised me and my self identification around rabbits, like calling me a zoophile and a bottom in public, made jokes abt a guy in that group "railing" me and along with all that completely fetishising my lack of physical gender transition, then completely dumped me out of the blue last year even tho they also made shit up abt him aswell, which ill never understand still talking to people who do that kinda shit.... shit this was ment to be a happy blog uhhhh... i get to have class with him tomorrow so thats good, but The Devil keeps telling me im being used to get more shit on me.

im gonna try fight the awful loud ass weekend speakers blasting music in the city here n go to that thrift shop i like that has all the old 40 year old rave shit, or maybe just button ups again... ik im like the only irish person on here, let alone the only corkonian, but nine crows fucks so hard when it comes to vintage clothes, makes me feel like my weird chubby slightly masculine build ass can pull off a short skirt.
ive absolutely no style, im like a 6 shirts, 3 pairs of jeans kinda guy so getting nice clothes is always cool

uhhhhhh if i think of anything nice ill add it here uhhhhhh

long time no blogging huh

well so far school is still ass, people still suck but ive found some people who suck alot less so thats nice.. my boyfriend turned 18 back in october so yay, ive got another few months until im crippled by the fear of having to make money to keep myself alive, he doesnt tho hes got some kind of special job thing secured, lucky him. i have to get my hair cut soon too so i might get it dyed the same red thats on my profile again, but i really dont know how short i want it and i really just dont wanna think abt it...

i hate winter in this country, and just in general, my bus home is always late so its dark by the time i get home at 5 pm, its also fucking freezing all the time, i dont wear my school jumper cus of sensory shit so im just left to freeze to death ig, ive got company at the bus stop now tho, not sure if i enjoy being around him but hes nice and kinda gross funny so i get along w/ him. beggars cant be choosers ig, i wanted friends so ig i cant complain, i still only talk to like... 3 people including my own boyfriend... that sounds sadder than i wanted it to sound huh

i started drawing again too, my anatomy is getting better but i still cant ever make something i like, its been like 3 years since i actually liked my art or been confident in it, ive just opted for doodling on mspaint and on my copies. im also doing shit with wires in computers n thats fun. m also trying to learn html but i hate it, ive a friend who works on websites as his job n i feel so inferior to him in so many ways its nuts its really killing my will to do anything but watch, especially when im ment to work alongside him for things, hes cool, i really like being around him but like... damn man... im meant to paint his nails some time so i hope that can help me feel better being around him...

oh yeah shit and my school got sent a fake threat n armed gardi showed up n i had a panic attack in the park near my school cus we were all sure it was ment to be a bomb threat

damn do i ever have good news uhhhh... i got into EVABOY ig, i started listening to more music too, more than just the stuff i recognise, i really dont have good news this month other than that n my boyfriend being an adult now... i guess i also kinda sorta figured out i might be polyamourous?? i mean only from judging from past stuff, ive no real eyes for anyone but my boyfriend atm... uhhhhh what fucking else???? nah i got nothing, who knew complaining was easier than not huh

i just gotta find some furry edm album to base it off of ig

i might have only started like a week ago but like. i gotta be honest basic python shit feels easier than html..
idk if its cus i find it more readable but god DAMN..

like damn. im already thinking of buying a house and getting a job and living with someone and like. actually doing stuff. this sucks ASS. schools not helping either its just making me feel like its a 80 foot wall i have to scale just so i can actually do stuff. im either sleeping or doing homework while these twats constantly scream at me about how i HAVE to think of collage and work and also i should spend 24 hours a day studying for an exam i have in 2 years. and if i cant do that i should just drop out. like holy fuck what

its weird being treated like my age for once too, instead my height.. if that makes sense. i look very feminine but i dont wear any makeup, im about 5 foot 4, i dont act very mature, just quiet, so im used to people being surprised when i tell them im 17, fuck even im surprised im 17... like wdym im still 13...

holy shit n my boyfriend is 18 next month (i thiiiink??? im such a bad partner i forgot his birthday...), he absolutely looks his age which is probably jarring for people to see us as a couple, but i think he makes me seem moreless like my age

im also getting closer to being in a place where i can be a little more open about things like being trans and gay, alot of my friends take it very well, my boyfriend has completely embraced me being trans now which makes me insanely happy. like holy fuck wdym i dont have to follow the rules my dad has around me cutting my hair or dressing "like a fella" in like less than a year???....

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IM GOING TO BE AN ADULT IN LESS THAN A YEAR.

next year im the big scary 18, im now a senior in school n i have to do shit for leaving cert, i actually have to worry about being the wrong age to see any pediatricians that ive already been on the list for for about 1 n a half years... i have to worry about shit like money now and travel, i have a boyfriend i gotta implement into my life now too

yet regardless all that i feel more like a child than ive ever felt in the past few years, maybe its because things are finally going ok-ish and i can calm down more and can drop the needing to grow up faster stuff the past few years has taught me, im getting into plushies, im watching cartoons again, im drawing ponies and cats and love hearts all over my books, im dressing more masculine but i still look younger.

maybe im infantilising myself, maybe im just letting myself do my own thing without worrying, who cares, ive only got one more year to be a kid and maybe thats what i wanna do

i am 17 now yay

soon i think
idfk
yay

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https://plasticdino.neocities.org
https://graphic.neocities.org
https://y2k.neocities.org
https://kanaya.crd.co/
https://epic.crd.co/
https://blinki.es
https://gifcity.carrd.co/
https://downloads.khinsider.com/

very nice very cool

time flys
happy birthday shoebox

had my first kiss lets go girlies

stayed out w/ my new bf after school n we ended up making out in the park lol

i feel sorry for the poor old guy who walked his dog past us

it was so cool tho ive never done that to anyone aaaaaa

WHY??

schools wild

cried like 5 times today to a dude who probably likes me about a guy who probably doesnt like me also because i was sad noone was talking to me this morning for some reason..

uh i had a dream a few nights ago that i was on some kind of drag-ish type show and i was on a team with trixie mattel and i kept fucking up and embarrassing her and its fucked me up in the head a little since

uh i also think i developed a new tic but this time its a vocal one and it kinda just sounds like "shoo" which is funny cus it already looks like im sneezing half the time when im having a fit.

uhhh im going to see the barbie movie for my birthday even tho its like 2 weeks after it

oh yeah and i completed my free therapy thingy for my anxiety n tics and i lied alot on the test at the end but apparently im not in a dangerous spot anymore but i lied so who knows

thats all i think thank you bye bye

yippee

i moved house to a different town thats alot closer to where i used to live b4 my mam kicked me out, like i can see that towns watertowers on the hills in the distance from where i am now, feels gross i dont like it.

nice house tho, smaller, less rooms, but the rooms are bigger than our previous ones, house isnt rotting away either like the last n there isnt as much iron and lime in our water here. we're nearer to shops too so i can actually shop for my own food instead of living off what shit my dad can cook like burger and... burger..

i dont have a school bus anymore either sadly so i have to pay for that shit now, dont wanna move schools tho cus ive got some genuine friends now n theres a nice fella there who i think fancies me back. also cus moving school is just more hassle i dont wanna deal with rn

just a heads up incase i remove a bunch of "rude" things from my page
ion wanna get detention :[

why do these kind of sites attract so many furries

hell yeah baby

there was lots of things about ms93 i hated, but one of the things i hated the most was templates.

now thats the only shit im seeing on here

what the fuck