IT'S BEEN A MONTH

ok so I KNOWW it's been a month since my last login. things have gone wayyyy downhill (really bad breakup from my now-ex-boyfriend of a WHILE, family member died, multiple upheavals in my really tight-knit friend group, etc) but i am balling for the time being. thugging it out, if you will. currently struggling through my junior year of high school (second to last year of required schooling in the US) although my grades are good and i'm thinking about a change in career path.

my goal used to be to get some computer science job that let me work from home, but with the breakup and things just being insane rn i've been reconsidering. maybe i might get a job on a fishing boat in alaska? i'd be working 6-9 months out of the year, and the pay seems okay. i guess i just feel like the spark has been sucked out of me and nothing seems worth it anymore, and a simple life on a trawler seems nice. i'm not exactly super frail or anything, so i think i could do it if i worked out for the next 2ish years. i also live next to the ocean and my father is an ex-boat captain so i could get experience through him. idk, seems neat.

on the other side of things, i got into a national physics program! i'll be going to lectures for the next 12 weeks and doing some work with fermilab. it's pretty cool. that's more or less keeping me going at this point.

hopefully things will get better, but who knows. ciao!