balling

ok so i AMMM sick af rn. like bedbound sniffling coughing sneezing staring pitifully into the distance etc. BUT i did get silent hill 2 (window edition) and i'm going thru that. i also have been getting closer w my homeboy and his group and they're pretty cool. ALSO i've been hanging out with my girls more. sometimes all you need is a sleepover with 7 other teenage girls where y'all do nothing but talk about random ass things, watch bollywood movies, and do a spell one of the group members found on tiktok. we're party rocking.

i also donated blood today! it was fine at first, i'm not really afraid of anything that i know won't permanently damage me, because really, if there isn't a possibility of dying, why be afraid? but when my blood bag was like 95% full i got really lightheaded and nauseated. i didn't vomit but i did feel like shit for a good 2-3 hours. alsooo when i got home the injection/IV site was all fucked up??? i checked with my dad and grandmother (both have done their fair share of IV insertions) and they both agreed that whoever put the needle in fucked up majorly. it doesn't look like there's too much damage or nothing, but it does look fuccccckkkked up. like "why is there so much bruising, there shouldn't be damage there, is your vein wall ok?" type shit. i'll be fine, i've had worse, but it's inconvenient. it was kinda cool to see so much of my own blood, though. really didn't think i had that much in me.

anyways i hope all of u are having a great time of life rn <3 shit happens and life sucks but a life without struggle wouldn't be living, and your hardships are your own. love is omnipresent and everlasting, nothing will change that. yippee!