I don't know if my autism is to blame for this, but at first I can absolutely DESPISE something only for it to grow on me and then fall in love with it! There are plenty of examples of me doing this, but the more recent one is the 180 I did with The Backstreet Boys! While I was exposed to I Want It That Way a few times before, I was reintroduced to the song again when I played GTA V in 2023. At first, I refused to listen to it and would always change the station whenever it came on. As I dug deeper and deeper into the game and the overall lore additions it adds to the HD universe (I can write another longish blog about what I've discovered about this mirror of a universe...), and growing a bit as a person, I started to despise two other songs on the in-game Pop station (I previously despised Moves Like Jagger and this), Backstreet Boys got their shot, I enjoyed the song more, thought it fit the 2013 LA setting perfectly! Then their Millennium 2.0 album came out... I snatched that pretty fast as its just a re-release of the original 1999 Millennium album but with a bonus CD of unreleased tracks, alt versions of songs, and live performances of songs! I really, really enjoyed the album as it is. Thought it was a great farewell to the 20th century moving into the 21st. I liked it so much I ALMOST wrote an essay about the album cover and its meanings (I made it about the Mario movie poster). So, where does this neat little obsession lead now? Well, during my Utah trip to visit a friend attending BYU, I got a copy of their debut album! It took a few days after getting it for me to listen to it since the car we brought didn't have a CD player, how tragic. After ripping it and adding metadata manually (thanks, Microslop), I was back home and had access to my car, which did have a CD player! Then I noticed the jewel case was rough as the disk would not stay in place, so I sacrificed a crappy Christmas album I made the mistake of buying when I started my CD collection. While I was transferring the front sleeve to the new case, I saw the copy still had its promotional pamphlet of merchandise of the group straight from 1996. I also saw an AoL ad in there, 500 minutes for free, wowie. So, after I changed everything, I finally gave it a full listen, and oh my god, I love it more than the Millennium album! I'm not a composer or a critic, so my opinion doesn't really matter professionally, but I think it's got much more charming songs than the aforementioned Millennium album. I LOVED the first two tracks on that album, but thought the rest of the tracks were pretty forgettable. The debut album doesn't have this problem, I find myself remembering more tracks from it more often than with Millennium. I can totally see why every girl in the 90s/00s was KILLING over these dudes. I'm trying not to be a stereotype as a transfem, but damn... I can't help it, I mean, I got one of them IKEA sharks on that same trip. My music tastes are the COMPLETE polar opposite to my few friends who all like Hard/Death Metal. They do they and I'll continue liking my Dance-Pop. My tastes are all over the place... Jesus, I do write a lot, don't I? I just checked, this is over 600 words long.

Hey there, It's been a bit since I posted a blog... So, what's going on? I don't know really. Recently I started what's HOPEFULLY my last full semester of college before doing a summer class (I didn't want to overwhelm myself) and finally be done. After that, I have no clue of what to do with my life. Pretty much I've accepted a long time ago that I am a failure who will never amount to anything. And with the whole situation going on as I'm writing this... I don't know how long I'll last. I will admit, I have thought about ending it all as I simply don't see a point in continuing anymore... Like, I came out in October, but recently that excuse of a president made it legal for his Call of Duty army to kidnap ANY trans folk they see, citizen or not. Yeah, no one wants me here. I don't know how long I can last in the closet IRL anymore. I hate my deadname, I hate being referred as "he", I hate being grouped as a guy, I hate gender standards. I just wanna be happy, but the world isn't letting me. In better news, I recently got health insurance through my mom's new job and since I'm 20, I decided I could try and get on E on my own. Problem is, I'm not so sure how to do it. I'm fucking 20 and I can barely do any adult things... I'm so fucking pathetic, man. Sorry for the negative rant, but I need to get this out there.

Where do I begin? Hey anyone who still reads this website, I just wanted to provide an update on what's been happening. So, as of recent, I have realized that I am trans! 2 years of confusion and uncertainty led to this. For now, I just go by what someone else called me once, Isa. It's not short for Isabelle or anything similar, I just go by that now. I also recently started giving drawing another go and I think I'm getting there! If my profile image has changed since then, it was a drawing I made in Paint.net of a friends fox character! I have created an OC heavily based on that kimono fox style that's overused in Roblox, but to be 100% honest, that design was supposed to be one off as I needed to source a design easy and quick dabble into doing something furry. Oh yeah, I became a furry too, I guess. The signs were already there, just like me being trans. People have always said they always thought I was a girl and never gave off any masc vibes. For the furry stuff, it was damn obvious, like, I had 3 animal avatars on Roblox before the UGC update and always liked anthro stuff as a kid, so I just embraced it. So, gender and other things aside, after two years of owning it, I finally got a new car the other week too! 2016 Hyundai Veloster turbo with a 6-speed manual! I still liked my old car and wish the Veloster never showed up, but at least I can still see my old car since I sold it to my friend, who always liked the car. So there's that, I guess. I came to terms with me having depression. Long story, just know that soon I should be getting help regarding that. I don't know what I did to you, but blocking me after 4 years of not even TALKING is a bit overkill, don't you think? You know who you are, if you're reading this. I have zero idea what the hell I could've done to you to warrant this. But, whatever I've come to terms with it, do what you want. Tell me or don't, it won't make me lose sleep at night. ANYWAYS, if you read the whole thing, then there's a quick brief on the important things happening to me right now, adios! -Isa

(repost bulletin from SpaceHey)
I recently beat the first part of the GTA IV DLC: The Lost and Damned. I actually really enjoyed the story even though it was very depressing in my opinion. Even though this DLC is 15 years old, I'm not going to share spoilers since some of you might still want to play it. Now what I want to do is beat The Ballad of Gay Tony and the base GTA IV (again) AND GTA V before GTA VI comes out. Also, the tracks added to the radio stations are amazing, I really loved Vice City FM, Radio Broker, Self-Actualization FM, Vladivostok FM and K109 The Studio.

(Repost from Damedanespace)
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This may be a bit late, but as you already know; the 3DS/Wii U eShop closed back in March 2023. This marks the end of an era for Nintendo. And while I have purchased a bit of content, I mostly pirated. So, just like the Wii Shop Channel closure back in January 2019, I was a bit sad to hear this news. The 3DS played a HUGE part in my childhood and is something I hold close to my heart. I got my first 3DS in 2012 in a small mom and pop game store in some sketchy (now dead) mall. Boy, I remember the drive home and I just wouldn't stop looking at the box! I never really figured out the online stuff nor did I ever get the popular titles, what I had when I first got the 3DS is: Ridge Racer 3D, and a Micro Machines game for DS. A few months later, I got New Super Mario Bros. 2! I was sooo happy that I was finally going to be able to play a Mario game on the go after watching my parents play (and 100%) New Super Mario Bros. Wii! I never beat it on my own, relied on my dad for a lot of levels. So, when I first discovered the eShop when I finally got my parents to connect it to the internet, I was thrilled! It was like I was actually window shopping! All these great games that I just wanted SO badly but could never get. But that's when I discovered the applications. The first batch I downloaded were: Nintendo Video, Swapnote and Netflix. God I have SO MANY great memories with Nintendo Video! Like the time I used it to watch videos when I was grounded (I got caught), or watching Bravest Warriors and not knowing what was going on. Thank you, Nintendo.