Update 14/3/2026

Hey there, It's been a bit since I posted a blog... So, what's going on? I don't know really. Recently I started what's HOPEFULLY my last full semester of college before doing a summer class (I didn't want to overwhelm myself) and finally be done. After that, I have no clue of what to do with my life. Pretty much I've accepted a long time ago that I am a failure who will never amount to anything. And with the whole situation going on as I'm writing this... I don't know how long I'll last. I will admit, I have thought about ending it all as I simply don't see a point in continuing anymore... Like, I came out in October, but recently that excuse of a president made it legal for his Call of Duty army to kidnap ANY trans folk they see, citizen or not. Yeah, no one wants me here. I don't know how long I can last in the closet IRL anymore. I hate my deadname, I hate being referred as "he", I hate being grouped as a guy, I hate gender standards. I just wanna be happy, but the world isn't letting me. In better news, I recently got health insurance through my mom's new job and since I'm 20, I decided I could try and get on E on my own. Problem is, I'm not so sure how to do it. I'm fucking 20 and I can barely do any adult things... I'm so fucking pathetic, man. Sorry for the negative rant, but I need to get this out there.